Today's status:
Weight: 155.3 (yessssssss)
Productive activity: HARD day at work...still successful there!
Money spent: $0 ... will be a TAD more later... :)
New Neighborhoods: 1
New apartments: 1
Moments of realizing I may actually be a morning person: 1
It's been awhile since I've written...but not for want of something to write about. No...I literally haven't had the time! How great is that?! I had become so used to having so much time in my day to FILL...now my days are FULL and I am trying to find the extra time! And I LOVE IT!!!
Soooo....updates!!!
J and I have a new home!! We moved this weekend - J's family came in to help and we had my dear SE here too...they were all so helpful we got completely out of our old hole in three hours!! Moving is so overwhelming and I hate it. I HATE moving. I. HATE. IT. But this time wasn't actually all that terrible...I was moving for all the right reasons this time. No breakups...being broke and having to move home...J and I found our new HOME that we can live in and be happy - and we are! I can't believe how amazing it feels to see sunlight in our place...how did we survive a year in darkness? How did we survive a year in that small space...the cold (hot in summer), dark, stinky, MISERABLE place? We got married while living in that space...call me crazy but I think our relationship can survive almost anything if we made it - and even managed to GROW in our relationship - in that apartment! Woot for K and J!!
Loving my new job. LOVING it. It's something completely different than I've ever done...it's something challenging but yet relaxing...rewarding...fun...and inspiring. I am every day reminded to continue to stay healthy - to exercise - to eat better - and to be thankful for what I have. What more can I ask in a job?
I've been without work for quite some time...taking time off work to get my education...I worked as a teacher's assistant for awhile...but I just still didn't feel like a productive person. I didn't feel useful. It's so weird how a job can boost one's self esteem. I go to work every day and am proud of what I do...proud of MYSELF. And I haven't felt that in a long time...pride. My relationship with my husband was literally one of the only things I felt I could be proud about...
...marriage. We're on day #46 of our marriage...it's work, marriage. Not bad work...but it is work. I've found that relationships are really give and take...it's a constant balancing act which can be challenging at times. But I'm madly in love with it! I'm in love with J...I'm in love with marriage. It's a commitment so far beyond just dating that it's hard to even understand at times...to really grasp the concept of being with the SAME person for the REST of your LIFE...how crazy is that? And how LUCKY am I to have found that man!
I've lost weight...a good amount in the past two weeks! 3.5 pounds...and I'm still hard on myself! Calling myself "fat" and looking at the mirror in disgrace...why is that? Why am I SO hard on myself? I never EVER thought I was the perfectionist type - - all through high school I had tons of aspirations to do well and work hard, but never actually did. Fast forward 8 years later and you have a girl (woman?) so focused on perfection that I make a 3-ring binder for work and focus on all my failures instead of successes. Why do I focus on my failures??
Successes:
New job. And got moved to full time!
Weight loss!
Amazing lifelong friends!
Wonderful family!
Am going to be a new auntie!
Bestest bestest friend getting married! (not necessarily MY success...but am so beyond happy for her it feels like a success!)
New apartment!
New neighborhood!
46 days of marriage!!
....so I have SOME successes. Will keep working on getting some more.
That last one is my favorite.
*smile*
- Mrs. H